I've been reading. I figured I should do some reading and learning about this thing they call 'marriage'. I've never done it before, so I thought I should look into it. I had purchased some books previously on marriage, engagements, relationships. I'm always interested in things that are none of my business, so I have books. So, now I'm reading them.
One book I have asks questions. Questions you should ask of yourself before you do something permanent. Questions you should know about yourself. I'm all about introspection, so I find these questions really cool. Until, of course, they ask something of me I would rather not know. There are a lot of those questions in this book.
Five reasons someone would want to spend the rest of their lives with you. Five reasons they would not.
Ouch. Well, here we go.
Reasons why I rock:
1. I am a caring person. I want to take care of people. I want them to be happy and healthy. I will give of myself to make that happen. I love my family and friends fiercely. So being a part of that is likely a good thing. When I'm loyal, I'm loyal to a fault.
2. I have a good sense of humour. Well, okay, "good" is questionable. I can laugh at almost anything. Myself, other people, stressful situations. It's necessary to find the humour in stuff so it doesn't kick you to the curb.
3. I am good in a crisis. If things are going poorly, I am the girl to call on. Whatever the crap is that is falling, I can deal with it. I'm level headed and decisive in times of crisis.
4. I love dogs, kittens, babies, and street people. You would think those 4 things don't have any similarities, but they do. I cheer for the underdog. I love dogs because they are so dumb and love so unconditionally. I love kitties because they are soft and delicate. Then they grow into cats and I hate them, but I love kitties. Babies? That's self explanatory. And the street guys? I love them. They smell of mouthwash and BO, but they are highly amusing. Why is this a good thing? I think it shows I have a big heart.
5. I want to be a good person. I think about who I am and why and sometimes I work on making that better. I want to be the kind of person someone would want to have around. If that doesn't work, I make really good chocolate chip oatmeal cookies.
Reasons I might rock less:
1. I am bossy. I like people to do things my way in my time. I can be an obstinate bitch when I think I'm right.
2. I can be really mean. I judge people harshly and do it openly.
3. I hold people (and myself) to a ridiculously unfair standard. I want as close to my version of perfection as I can get. When I (or anyone) really screws that up, I get frustrated.
4. I'm bad with money. I spend more than I should, I sell for less than I should, I pay more than I should. I give to charity even when I can't pay my bills. I lend to friends or family as often as I can because I want to help. I put savings away while accumulating debt. I learned from a pro (thanks Dad!) and will forever be broke.
5. I don't think before I speak. I can be harsh and tactless and cruel when I think I'm being funny. I say the wrong thing at the wrong time and never even notice I've done it. Everything I say sounds like an order or a complaint (think Marj Simpson) and I blurt out things before I've processed the best way to deal with them. At work, we have a system. I get really mad, write a scathing letter, show it to my coworker Jess, she shows me how it could be said with a little more diplomacy, and I throw out the letter.
So there you have it. The Guy will have a lot to deal with when he gets me. More than he bargained for, I gather. You know, it was a lot easier to think of reasons NOT to be with me. I bet a therapist could have a grand time with that one.