I started thinking over at Schmutzie's as I often do and kept thinking on over here.
Why is it, regardless of the intellectual realization that we are loved, do we - as humans - feel unloved?
It has been a month of that for me. Feeling unworthy, unsuccessful, unhealthy (not to mention uber, orca-fat), and unloved. Now, don't get me wrong. I know I am loved. I mean, my family loves me, my friends love me, my coworkers love me, my boyfriend loves me. Heck, everyone and my dogs love me.
And yet. I found myself sitting the other day and thinking. I let out a huge sigh and thought to myself that I just want someone to love me.
Um... hey, dumbass. Look around.
I think we all have those days, May. I think the key is doing what you said - focusing on what you have rather than what you don't
ReplyDeleteI've been having those days too... I blame the coming winter. Or the winter you guys have already started and I am still unconsciously expecting! 2 days ago I thought to myself, "I just want a guy to spend time with" as I watched all the first-year handholding all over campus - and then I realised, "That is the LAST thing I actually NEED right now!" But the loneliness is still there. I get you. and I can't help solve the riddle - sorry!
ReplyDeleteHey! I know a few people who love you!
ReplyDelete(By the way, I told Chris about how you're writing about different people you've known, and he went all "Has she written about me yet? When's she going to write about me? She'll write about me, right? She could write about her crush on me!" Sigh. Can you tell he misses you?)
Joe: That is exactly it. And yet, I've been having a pity party of one.
ReplyDeleteNC: I am going to attribute it to the weather. Or something. Maybe the overdose of chocolate.
QoWP: I miss him too. And you, of course.
It's like we are endless love sponges, or something, or... jeez, that just sounds wrong. I'll stop while I'm ahead.
ReplyDeleteYou can add my blog to your list, if you'd like.
ReplyDeleteyou obviously were not listening to john tesh today, he spoke about that very thing. more specifically he said when busy women have a moment of quiet that is when doubts and fears start to arise. He suggested listening to them because that's when positive change happens. Or something like that.
ReplyDeleteSchmutzie: Exactly. I don't get it, but it's true.
ReplyDeleteKeri: I totally just did.
Teacher Lady: John Tesh is so smart.
I read this post earlier and thought about it. And then, I thought about it some more. And now, as I think about it, I am glad I am not the only one.
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