Thursday, August 17, 2006

I'm so unstable

Sometimes I scare myself with how completely out of control I am.

Today, I was lounging around the house doing some errands and paying some bills. I walked the dog and wore my new running shoes that I got to help with my hip and back issues. I went to get ready for work and decided I felt like wearing these shoes to work. With my jean shorts and a tank top.

But then I realized that I would be cold in the office and likely wouldn't want to go without a sweatshirt. But then I couldn't find the sweat shirt I wanted. So, I changed tank tops and wore a different zip-up. Then I decided I couldn't wear shorts. So I put on jeans. But I didn't like how they looked with the shoes. So I went to Wal-Mart and bought a pair of sweat pants. Then I went home and changed into my new sweat pants and left for work.

As I am driving to work, it dawns on me that I look ridiculous. I look like I have just come from the gym and desperately need to shower and change. I berated myself the whole way to work for dressing like this. And now I have to spend a whole 10 hours looking like I'm interviewing for an excercise video later tonight.

I know I am going to go home and Lyn is going to look at me and say "What are you wearing?" And I am going to have to admit that I know what it looks like, but I had a melt down. Seriously, a melt down. I lost all control. And what I need is love and acceptance, not ridicule and judgement.


  1. you are sans pareil, and don't you foget it!

  2. I make fun of most things you wear, so don't sweat it.

  3. Love and acceptance? Not our style sweet cheeks. If we can't openly mock each other then what do we have left?

  4. Openly mocking strangers?


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