Does anyone else get flaming hot when they are jealous? I was just thinking of all the times I have physical reactions to the emotions I am feeling. I guess I am noticing them a lot right now b/c I am having them all the freaking time, but it seems odd. I mean, I've spent a lot of time nauseated this last two weeks. And having waves of heat flame around me when I'm jealous or hurt. Its so bizarre to me to think that I can experience physical pain from a feeling that comes from my own brain. There are somethings I can't even hear without a physical reaction. Some people who are mentioned or come into a room and I become about 4 degrees hotter. Its bizaare. I guess my body just won't let me ignore the things I want to.
Its late. And I'm tired. And I have to be awake another 7 hours. Don't listen to me.
You're an X-Man -Person or whatnot! I know what you're saying. I was 2 months away from marriage when I got dumped (this was a few years ago, I call it BE03, Botched Engagement 2003, notice the year, in case it happens again.) Anyway, I have seen this girl once since it happened (we drove by each other and she put her hand down as if to change the radio - riggght, nice try). But there have been other times when I THOUGHT that I saw her and my heart starts racing and my stomach drops. It's bad. I embarrass easy and can feel that, but otherwise, I think you have a superpower. Try to shoot lasers out of your eyes next time! (I am totally kidding. This is the only way I know to deal with human emotion. Anyway, if it's inappropiate, let me know.)
ReplyDeleteNo thats exactly it. And I tried to explain it to someone earlier. Like I am trying to redirect my anger to more than one thing b/c otherwise it is too powerful and I feel like I CAN shoot laser beams from my eyes. (I can't. I've tried)
ReplyDeleteHave you ever tried killing a random stranger?
ReplyDeleteDoes it count that I've always wanted to??? On my day of no consequences. That was my big plan. But, no. Alas, I don't think I could do it. Goes against my nature. Although, if I could do it with laser beams from my eyes... I might.
ReplyDeleteWhenever I see this guy that I was completely in love with for 15 years I get all warm and turn bright red and the connection between my brain and my mouth shuts off so I just babble and say stupid things.
ReplyDeleteSigh. He's so wonderful.
I have been so bad that when I see a bald man in the store, my stomach goes all woobly. But there are a few things that the mention of it (esp a few people's names from past and current issues) and I get absolutely ill. I don't like the feeling at all.
ReplyDeleteRoger: I am sorry to hear about BE03. It sucks greatly. I wasn't quite there, but close enough. I'm starting to think I am losing my mind at times. Two of the worst break ups in my life all within 14 months of each other. I may never date again.
I'm going to call mine "The Big Sucking of '06"
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ReplyDeletePLEASE don't call yours the big sucking of '06. I just bought a bitchin' all day sucker and I already have all the T-shirts made.
ReplyDeletesigh.
Ps. My word ID was bonyn.
That is SO close to Bronwyn.