I'm a bi late with this one again. I was going to do it after The Guy went to bed, but was so tired by then I joined him. Will do this prompt now and the next one tonight. Unless I get tired again... then this is the beginning of a downward spiral.
December 13 Action. When it comes to aspirations, its not about ideas. It's about making ideas happen. What's your next step? (Prompt by @scottbelsky)
I am a woman of action. It's how I show love, it's how I fix things, it's how I move. When I am unable to act, I am paralyzed. It is at that time that depression and frustration and anger and helplessness come on me like a cloud. I am surrounded in my inability to act, to fix, to love, and I am lost.
Maybe that is why the last few months have been so bad for me. I am at a loss to fix the inequalities and hurts. I can still do my job, and do it well, but the rest is beyond something I can fix. To see a problem and not be able to act, that is the worst punishment that exists for me. I can see the contradictions, the unfairness, the immoral. And I am in the minority so therefore am not able to act in the way that I feel is necessary to make change happen.
For me, this coming year is not about how to put things into action, but how to be okay when I am unable to act. For me, that is the challenge.