Tuesday, September 23, 2008

About three hundred feet over "whelmed"

I have a list of things I think about. Scratch that. Worry about. It's the same list, recycled as many times as I can. You know the phrase. "Lather, rinse, repeat."

I go over the list often in my head. Worrying each topic until you would think there was nothing left. Taking action against some items, but mostly lying in defeat on the couch knowing things have spiralled beyond my control.

The same issues that everyone faces, I have allowed them to worm their way into my unconsciousness so that even moments I am not awake are feeding on my concerns. Money, family, food, bills, productivity, weight gain, all funnel around me struggling for who will gain the forefront of my thoughts today.

And I feel guilty. For worrying. For not solving these problems. For not setting them aside. For not sucking it up because other people have problems way worse than mine. For not doing more for people. For not being better at this. For not being more in control.

So I resort to laying on the couch and eating cereal. Hoping the empty calories will keep the other things at bay.

5 comments:

  1. Don't sweat the small stuff.......think of everything as small stuff.
    Did that help? No?? Well you could always drink some whine.....ahem I mean wine.That should help.

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  2. I'm doing the same thing right now, hon, and when it all starts revolving up there in that noggin it seems like nothing will stop it. Even when I know good and well that some things are completely beyond my control, I still worry.

    Here's hoping for less to worry about in the very near future - for us both.

    Oh, and ice cream works much better than cereal. :-)

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  3. I used to feel like if I worried, then the worse wouldn't happen. If I sang zippidy doo dah, I'd get slapped in the head.

    So my worrying kept the earth on its axis.

    Some are born worriers. Some pick the daisys.

    I say, let's kill those MFers cuz they aint right.

    My favorite saying "IF YOU CAN KEEP YOUR HEAD, WHILE THOSE AROUND YOU ARE LOSING THEIRS - THEN YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND THE SITUATION.

    On the other hand, it might make us feel a bit SUPERIOR to those we think are idiots. At least THEY live longer.....OMG.....now I have to worry about dying before my enemies.

    Bronwein, see what you did!!!!!

    Love you lil' girl.

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  4. Here comes the Christian advice that I find impossible to actually follow: try to remember that you're not supposed to be in control, and try to give control to the One who is.

    It's mighty, mighty, mighty difficult though.

    I'm sorry that I'm one of the problems on your list of worries. Love you, Bronny.

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  5. Keeper: I will take that into consideration. Whine and wine!

    Evil: I like the ice cream route too. However, my waist does not.

    Dana: It's good to know there are others like me out there. Thanks so much!

    Ky: It's hard to follow, I know that. Don't you worry about worrying me. It's what we do.

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